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Pay What You Want!

Space Grab


This 2010 watercolour painting is now **PAY WHAT YOU WANT**. ‪#‎tbt‬

Last night I wrote about being able to see how far I’ve come with my art, and this series really helps me to realize how I’ve matured with my art, and how much more open and vulnerable I am willing to be.

1. Today only, send me a message telling me about how you have changed since 2010.

2. What is your offer? (Shipping and handling not included).

3. I will contact you tomorrow!

“Space Grab”, watercolour and ink on paper, 4″ x 6″.



It’s #tbt! And time to PAY WHAT YOU WANT. 
1. Today only, send me a message telling me one thing about trust, as it relates to your life. 

2. Tell me your offer (shipping not included). 

3. I will contact you tomorrow!
“Trust”, watercolour and ink on paper, 18 x 26 cm.

SelfLove365, Year 2, Day 348: Trust


This is one of my greatest challenges and lessons of all: to trust that I am safe, and that I can be myself and be ok, even if some people don’t like me. I am ready to stop looking for permission to be me.

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SelfLove365, Year 2, Day 272: Surrender, Let Go, Trust


Surrender. (Allow this moment to be as it is.)
Surrender to my feelings. Surrender to my pleasure. Surrender to my pain.

Let go. (Nothing is forever, anyways.)
Let go of the need to control. Let go of everything. If I hang on too tight, I will suffer, guaranteed.

Trust. (I chose this life. Everything is perfect as it is.)
Absolutely. Know that this is it.

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SelfLove365, Year 2, Day 164: Trust


This is a huge lesson for me to learn.

Trust that I can survive.
Trust that the universe will provide for me.
Trust that I am supported.
Trust that all is well.
Trust that everything is exactly as it should be.

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Lacking trust. 

 Completed this commission today- it’s always scary for me, to see if the customer likes the final result. I don’t usually trust that they will. He does. 🙂

SelfLove365, Year 2, Day 79: Faith


My first thought is that faith is a religious concept that I know nothing about. Or a George Michael song. Or trust that things will turn out the way they need to. No wonder I don’t feel a strong connection to the word – I’m not religious, not a George Michael fan (except for Wham), and much of the time, I lack trust.

I want to have faith in the universe and to trust that everything in my life happens to help my soul grow in the way it needs.

SelfLove365, Year 2, Day 19: Willingness to Dig Deep


Scratching the surface, you will find I am not a snob, or stuck-up and quietly condescending, like you may think. I am curious and watching. Listening and absorbing. Waiting and reacting.

Dig a little deeper and you will hear about all the ways the things you say are affecting me. The triggers know no bounds are are frequently dredging up old stuff from the past; things I keep thinking will just fall away, and I know it’s time to accept that they will likely keep testing me; it’s my reactions that can change. it’s the jealousy, abandonment, rejection, wanting to be liked, not feeling good enough, feeling like I’m too much, insecurity and lack of trust and safety, that you’ll find.

Shovel a bit more and you’ll see that I’m just like you. And we are the same. I am you, and you are me. I know your stories and you will know mine, or you knew them years ago. I want to be seen by you and to witness your beauty and love.

Take me all apart and there is the spark of light that longs to go back to where it came from. It watches all this, and waits.

Sacred Space and Trust

Last night, I realized I didn’t trust my friend, B. He told me he would do something, and I questioned him. Then I apologized for being suspicious, but realized it goes deeper than that. I just don’t believe him.

When I started to think about this, I realized that it isn’t just him that I don’t believe, it is everybody. I don’t trust anybody. This becomes readily apparent when I receive compliments or positive feedback. B told me many things last night: He loves being with me, and is so happy he knows me. In the moment of hearing these things, I felt warm and fuzzy, but the insidious voices in my head were already creeping back in to tell me that this is all false. So really, it’s not that I don’t trust him, but rather, I don’t even trust myself. I don’t trust that my being can be good enough, loveable enough, or wanted enough for these messages to be true. I should add here that I do also have a deep (as in buried really, really far down) knowing within myself that I am good enough, loveable enough and wanted enough, and this part is at my core, but very easily covered over by the dark fog of memories and hurts that are easily triggered during my life.

From Project SelfLove365

From Project SelfLove365

Several days ago, B suggested to me that I smudge my mental body. Doing this visualization was wonderful – I was able to really see my mental space, and all its dark and dirty corners. As I cleared it out, I felt lighter and the space became cleaner and brighter. Eventually my mental body became a bright open room, with sun streaming in the windows, and a beautiful crystal hanging from the ceiling, reflecting rainbows on all the walls. Immediately after clearing the space, those insidious voices I spoke of tried to creep back in (they became dustballs with eyes) to dirty my mental space again. I quickly realized how much work it takes to keep this space clean.

I recently separated from my husband, so I decided I would also smudge my house (I am speaking of my actual physical house now, not some imaginary thing). This felt cleansing, especially after opening all the windows to air it out afterwards. It seemed to me that by smudging my mental body and my house, I am treating these spaces as sacred. I have the intention to keep these spaces clean, knowing full well that I may let things slide once in awhile and will then need to do some more heavy work.

From Project SelfLove365

From Project SelfLove365

Thinking about sacred space made me realize that I have not been treating my body as sacred space. Some of my decisions in the past few days have pushed my body to follow its desires rather than its needs. When there is something I want to do, I have a tendency to ignore my body, and to not check in to see what it needs first (especially sleep). By not listening to my body’s physical sensations, I am not allowing any sort of positive feedback loop to occur (only the unwanted one in which I keep ignoring my body and then I get sick). By not allowing this to happen, I am also not giving myself the chance to trust myself. How can I really be a “HELL YES” to something if my body is saying no? If I am not really a “HELL YES”, then how can anyone trust my answer, especially me, if I can’t even trust it? If I can’t trust myself how can I trust anybody?

This is worth repeating.
If I can’t trust myself, how can I trust anybody?

So, how can I trust myself? I am beginning to ask my body the question and listen for the response. It will come. Right now, my body wants to dance.



“Trust”, 8″ x 10″, $250

How do I keep moving forward in the uncertainty of this world?
I need to trust.

How can I know that everything will work out exactly as it is supposed to work out?
I need to trust.

How can I see that what I am doing is the right thing?
I need to trust.

How can I hear my own truth when the voices of others are so loud?
I need to trust.

How can I feel what is deep inside me, and allow it to enter the world?
I need to trust.

I trust that the universe will support me.
I trust that all that I need will be provided.
I trust in me.

I need to trust.