Sometimes life takes a turn, and travels in a direction I wasn’t expecting. I can choose to fight it, and my resistance will likely lead to disappointment, anger, bitterness, resentment, chaos, and suffering; or, I can choose to ride the wave, and see where I end up. To make this easier, I remain curious and open, and let go of my expectations of things being different than they are. This is true whether I’m stuck in traffic, or lose something precious to me. Curiosity is my key to remaining open to what’s ahead, and seeing the situation with a fresh perspective.
In order to be firm, I need to speak my truth.
To be able to speak my truth, I must know where I stand.
To know where I stand, I have to know what I want.
To figure out what I want, I need to remain curious, and try new things.
To remain curious, I need to be open to possibility.
To be open to possibility, I need to let go of what I know.
To let go, I need to surrender to what is.
To surrender, I need to just be.
There is nothing left to do but be.
When I am curious, I remain open to possibility. When I am curious, I am listening intently to what you say. When I am curious, I experience wonder and awe. When I am curious, I am inspired by my surroundings. When I am curious, I see things in a new light. When I am curious, I am open to life.
As soon as I open myself up, I feel the fear. Then I breathe and expand. Allow the fear. What is under it? Can I be the full sense of me, even with the fear? Can I be ok with letting you see all of me? I open, I feel the fear, I let you in, and I am full. Now you see me, complete, whole.
I am open.
I don’t have much experience with conflict – usually I shy away from it because a bigger need for me is to know that I am liked. There are times, though, that my warrior picks up her spear, yells at the top of her lungs and charges forward. The part of me that wants to be liked, at all costs, tries to hold the warrior back, with voices saying that I have done wrong, that I am bad, that I am too aggressive. It takes a lot of effort for me to remain grounded in this, and to know that I don’t need to be liked by everybody.