It’s all in here, and I really don’t need anyone else to show me, to tell me, to validate me. I sometimes (often) fall back on my addictive habits of dependency on others, forgetting that I am fully capable of knowing, and showing myself, my own self-worth. It can feel more difficult to do it on my own, but in reality, it would make life so much easier.
On the heels of open-heart yesterday, this seems like a given. We are all worthy – YES!
Now I’m thinking about my art, though, and how I can use that as a way to value myself. I recently offered a painting at a pay-what-you-want price. I was offered $5. Not only do I value myself enough to refuse that offer, but I also realized that PWYW requires some sort of minimum price (like I do with my auctions), so that I don’t feel taken advantage of, and unworthy.
The real challenge for me in showing myself that I value ME is in my moments of choice. Lately I have been asking myself, “Does this serve me?” I’ve just begun this practice, so I am making all kinds of choices that don’t serve me (sugar, Facebook, staying up late). But the more mistakes I make, the more I remember to ask the question, and the more I feel that self-worth.
Like Stuart Smalley (SNL) says, “I’m good enough. I’m smart enough. And doggone it, people like me!”