“We are all made of stars” – Moby
“I am you and you are me” – Nine Inch Nails
Knowing we are all made of the same stuff, however that happened, helps me get through the challenging moments. I feel less alone, and part of a greater thing than the tiny, singular universe that I inhabit.
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SelfLove365 Year 2 Day 2: Good Listener
I am listening to myself cry. I can’t stop crying and I can’t stop listening. I am listening to the “Ghosts” album by NIN, which is haunting and beautiful and reminds me of last night. Dancing to the same album last night was how I released my body from being stuck in a place of shame. Before sitting down to write today, I turned it on again, and really listened to my body. The tears flowed immediately as I moved, but today, I also feel lonely. I am allowing it. I am listening. I am feeling lonely and noticing the desire to fix it. I am feeling lonely and and also noticing the desire to stay with it and see what it wants to show me. I feel alone, but also feel connected to everything in that aloneness.
Today I experienced tears of passion, tears of pleasure, tears of shame, tears of loneliness and tears of being alive. I am listening to the sound of my tears.
It may not feel that long ago, but it sure looks it! The kids were tiny! I love this shot of all of us.
I couldn’t resist using this one! I love the Billy Idol sneer, the robe, the cheeks, everything!
I think the only pictures of JP and I are in the airport! And look: braids!!
From the CD vault: “Meet your Master” by Nine Inch Nails. This is from the album “Year Zero”, which according to Wikipedia “is a concept album that criticizes contemporary policies of the United States government by presenting a dystopian vision of the year 2022”. I never looked this up before today, but I have listened to the album countless times, all the way through, and was aware of the storyline through the songs. It is such a powerful album, and you probably already know about my love for Trent Reznor’s music, but I am constantly struck by his ability to make industrial music beautiful. There is always something in it that sends a chill down my spine. In this song, it is around 2:48, where the strings come in behind the screechy guitar (ok, I’m sure it’s all electronic, but you know what I mean). I would suggest listening to the whole song, though, not just that part. Never mind that, get that album. It’s pretty rare that I like an entire album all the way through.
“In this Twilight” is the second to last song on the album. This song is pure genius. Another great example of the mixing of industrial sounds with incredible melody. It was the final song played at the concert I went to several years ago, and such a moving way to end it.