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Valentine’s Day :: Painting Auction!

"Intimacy"  Auction painting.

“Intimacy” Auction painting.

Happy Valentine’s Day! This painting was created exclusively for a special Valentine’s event happening tonight.

“Intimacy”
24″ x 24″ x 2″

This painting is now up for auction!

Starting bid: $100

Shipping not included. ($40 Canada, $50 US)

Bidding ends at 10:30 pm M.S.T., February 14, 2014.

Please bid in the comment section of this post.

Here is a video of the painting in progress:

Painting Auction!

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“The Sound of Words”
16″ x 20″
Getting back into the swing of things after my week of preparing for and enjoying the Sophia Arts Fall Show. It’s been awhile since my last auction, so I’ve decided to put this painting up today!

Starting bid: $80

Shipping not included. ($30 Canada, $40 US)

Please enter your bid in the comment section below. Bidding ends at 9 pm M.S.T., October 3, 2013.
Thank you!!

Today’s Lesson: Paint it Black

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After I’ve been working on a painting for awhile, I step back and observe. Usually I notice that it is missing something here, or a little something needs to go there. But once in awhile, a painting needs a BIG makeover. It’s too rainbow, too monotonous, and doesn’t have enough contrast. The answer: black.

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I can understand how this may be daunting. I can get caught up in not wanting to ruin my painting, whatever that means! I occasionally become attached to certain areas, and allow myself that attachment. Sometimes I will save those little bits, and sometimes I’ll just paint right over them. More often than not, if I save them, after a few days I am able to paint over them without shouting, “CRAP!” Painting with black turns the project right around, allowing it to go in a whole different direction. It’s a great way to get past being stuck and it adds wonderful depth to the image.

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I finished this one today and just love how it turned out (but I am not attached to it.. I could do another round of black, I guess..). I’ve named it “Ether” – it is now available in my etsy shop.

Allow

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I’ve been a bad, bad blogger. But I have plans for posts that I still haven’t written yet. Now that the children are in school, I am committing to you to be a better blogger! I have been painting, though!

I finished this one today. It went through several stages in a few hours.

Hm, this needs something.
Black, that’s it. Lot’s of black.
Crap, now what?
I think I have forgotten how to paint.
Forget the final outcome, just work in the moment.
OK, that’s coming, but still missing something.
Add red – oh, yeah, that’s it!
Doubt.
Allow.

I’m calling this one “Allow”. That’s what the painting process is all about, for me. Allowing myself to express whatever is coming up in the moment.

This painting is now available in my etsy shop.

“What’s Below” : : Painting Auction!

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I am pretty sure you need more colour in your life… right? Today’s painting is now up for auction. I am trying something new today… I will continue the auction on my Facebook page, and you are welcome to head over there to bid, but I will also welcome bids in the comments of this post and I’ll keep them both updated.

Starting bid $30

Please enter your bid in the comments below.

Bidding will end today, July 18, 2013 at 10:00 pm M.S.T.

Shipping is $30 to Canada, $40 to U.S.

Painting measures 16″ x 20″ and is painted on the edges. You can either hang it as is, or frame it to your liking.

Colors on your monitor may differ slightly from the original.

Good luck!

Rejected.

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Two of my paintings (above and below) were not accepted into a juried art show at a local art gallery today. Just like last year. Last year, I told myself it was only because of the canvases (the edges were too thin, I was told). This year, I have all sorts of reasons:

I’m not a real artist (whatever that means).

There are words on the paintings and the jury didn’t like words.

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My work is too “pretty” (I have heard this statement before), too colourful, trying too hard, too much like somebody else’s work, too this, too that.

OK, I get it, I get it: I suck.

Before you go commenting to tell me this all isn’t true, I want to assure you that I know this. I know the voices in my head are lying to me. I know they are trying to keep me safe (in a weird way), that they aren’t working for me, etc. I get this. And the whole time I think these thoughts, I also have a witness inside of me, that is completely non-judgemental, and knows that none of it matters, none of it is true, none of it is real. I know.

I’m still crying my guts out.

Rejection is giving me ample opportunity to feel my emotions, to be in touch with what is going on for me, to see what is real, and what I am feeding with my energy. As much as I would rather be jumping for joy that I got into an art show, I am also grateful for the chance to feel so deeply. This rejection is stacking onto another rejection from over a week ago – a more personal one, but one that gave me a huge jab in my core; I hadn’t realized just how low my self-esteem was until that day. I’m still not over that one, and now this double dose of rejection has been difficult, to say the least.

You know how lots of self-help books and websites say, “You can’t love others until you love yourself”? I’ve been thinking about this, with reference to rejection. Is it true that I am actually rejecting myself, and that maybe I don’t love myself enough? At first I thought so, but then I realized I was just trapping myself in my old perfectionist ways again. What I was really saying was,

“I’m not loving myself enough. I am not good enough at loving myself”.

I have realized that in reality, I am very good at loving myself. I cry when I need to cry. I call my husband when I need to hear a loving voice during my shitty day. I ask for hugs. I take myself out dancing. I blog (sometimes.. haha!). I ask for what I want.

I also listen to music when I need to listen to music. During my rejection experience last week, I noticed I wasn’t really in touch with “sadness”, even though I felt sad-ish, and knew I would be sad later. I knew I needed a cry, it just wasn’t happening yet. Music to the rescue: I instinctively played Sigur Ros in the car, without really knowing why, and BOOM! A flood of tears, all day long. A few days later, that sadness turned into anger, and Nine Inch Nails has been helping me feel that and move through it.

You know what? I like my paintings, I really do. I have fun making them, I even like looking at them afterwards (except after a few months – I start to cringe if they hang around too long). I am grateful for all the people who like to look at my art online, whether on my blog or my Facebook page. I am especially grateful for those who send me supporting comments and feedback, and the people who purchase my paintings. As much as I do paint for myself, I don’t want to work in a vacuum, keeping it all locked away for nobody to see. I want people to see my work and to enjoy it.

But not everybody will, and that’s alright, too.

It’s Strange but I like it!

I’m so glad to be back in the swing of things – I’m painting more regularly and really enjoying it! I am finding today’s composition to be a little bit odd, but sometimes odd is good. So I am embracing it and as usual, enjoying creating color explosions!

Today’s painting is up for auction on my Facebook page, so please head over there to bid! The auction ends tonight at 9 pm MST.

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It’s a colourful day!

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Last night I chose to dance, rather than go to Gorilla House. It was a wonderful night, but I did miss painting! Painting at Gorilla House is such a different experience that painting in my studio, so I decided to bring a bit of that energy to the studio: I made two paintings in two hours.

I had lots of fun making these, and although the color palette is the same, the energy is very different (to me). Sticking with the Gorilla House theme, I am auctioning both of these paintings on my Facebook page today. The auction ends tonight at 10 pm MST, so head on over!

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