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Back in the Studio!

After that quick taste of summer, school has started and I am finally able to paint again! Yippee! I am scheduling in painting time (among all my other fun things to do) daily using my new calendar app. It’s funny to me that most people who asked me how often I paint thought it was daily, but it was usually only once or twice a week.

Finished up these two and there are more coming! These will be available in my Etsy shop soon, but until then, contact me if you are interested in purchasing.

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Speak, 24″ x 24″, $680

 

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“In the Garden”, 12″ x 24″, $500

Painting Auction!

"Healing" 16" x 20"

“Healing” 16″ x 20″

This is my first painting of 2014! I was heavily influenced by my first Medicine Wheel gathering, which had a big impact on me. I learned a lot about myself, and I love the teachings and how they apply to my life. The painting is called, “Healing” and measures 16″ x 20″.

This painting is now up for auction!

Starting bid: $80

Shipping not included. ($30 Canada, $40 US)

Please enter your bid in the comment section of this post. Bidding ends at 10 pm M.S.T., January 16, 2014.

Thank you!

Here is the video I made of the painting in progress. I hope you enjoy it!

“What’s Below” : : Painting Auction!

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I am pretty sure you need more colour in your life… right? Today’s painting is now up for auction. I am trying something new today… I will continue the auction on my Facebook page, and you are welcome to head over there to bid, but I will also welcome bids in the comments of this post and I’ll keep them both updated.

Starting bid $30

Please enter your bid in the comments below.

Bidding will end today, July 18, 2013 at 10:00 pm M.S.T.

Shipping is $30 to Canada, $40 to U.S.

Painting measures 16″ x 20″ and is painted on the edges. You can either hang it as is, or frame it to your liking.

Colors on your monitor may differ slightly from the original.

Good luck!

Rejected.

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Two of my paintings (above and below) were not accepted into a juried art show at a local art gallery today. Just like last year. Last year, I told myself it was only because of the canvases (the edges were too thin, I was told). This year, I have all sorts of reasons:

I’m not a real artist (whatever that means).

There are words on the paintings and the jury didn’t like words.

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My work is too “pretty” (I have heard this statement before), too colourful, trying too hard, too much like somebody else’s work, too this, too that.

OK, I get it, I get it: I suck.

Before you go commenting to tell me this all isn’t true, I want to assure you that I know this. I know the voices in my head are lying to me. I know they are trying to keep me safe (in a weird way), that they aren’t working for me, etc. I get this. And the whole time I think these thoughts, I also have a witness inside of me, that is completely non-judgemental, and knows that none of it matters, none of it is true, none of it is real. I know.

I’m still crying my guts out.

Rejection is giving me ample opportunity to feel my emotions, to be in touch with what is going on for me, to see what is real, and what I am feeding with my energy. As much as I would rather be jumping for joy that I got into an art show, I am also grateful for the chance to feel so deeply. This rejection is stacking onto another rejection from over a week ago – a more personal one, but one that gave me a huge jab in my core; I hadn’t realized just how low my self-esteem was until that day. I’m still not over that one, and now this double dose of rejection has been difficult, to say the least.

You know how lots of self-help books and websites say, “You can’t love others until you love yourself”? I’ve been thinking about this, with reference to rejection. Is it true that I am actually rejecting myself, and that maybe I don’t love myself enough? At first I thought so, but then I realized I was just trapping myself in my old perfectionist ways again. What I was really saying was,

“I’m not loving myself enough. I am not good enough at loving myself”.

I have realized that in reality, I am very good at loving myself. I cry when I need to cry. I call my husband when I need to hear a loving voice during my shitty day. I ask for hugs. I take myself out dancing. I blog (sometimes.. haha!). I ask for what I want.

I also listen to music when I need to listen to music. During my rejection experience last week, I noticed I wasn’t really in touch with “sadness”, even though I felt sad-ish, and knew I would be sad later. I knew I needed a cry, it just wasn’t happening yet. Music to the rescue: I instinctively played Sigur Ros in the car, without really knowing why, and BOOM! A flood of tears, all day long. A few days later, that sadness turned into anger, and Nine Inch Nails has been helping me feel that and move through it.

You know what? I like my paintings, I really do. I have fun making them, I even like looking at them afterwards (except after a few months – I start to cringe if they hang around too long). I am grateful for all the people who like to look at my art online, whether on my blog or my Facebook page. I am especially grateful for those who send me supporting comments and feedback, and the people who purchase my paintings. As much as I do paint for myself, I don’t want to work in a vacuum, keeping it all locked away for nobody to see. I want people to see my work and to enjoy it.

But not everybody will, and that’s alright, too.

It’s a colourful day!

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Last night I chose to dance, rather than go to Gorilla House. It was a wonderful night, but I did miss painting! Painting at Gorilla House is such a different experience that painting in my studio, so I decided to bring a bit of that energy to the studio: I made two paintings in two hours.

I had lots of fun making these, and although the color palette is the same, the energy is very different (to me). Sticking with the Gorilla House theme, I am auctioning both of these paintings on my Facebook page today. The auction ends tonight at 10 pm MST, so head on over!

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